"She was on my heart, for weeks, I kept thinking about her for no reason." There is a reason why self absorbed people like me have a tugging in our hearts for certain people. Its pray for them, say it to them, encourage then, they need it now. I want no longer want to wait around for permission or the closeness to settle in before I speak into someone's life because I've been commissioned to love by the One True Love. I no longer want to be bothered by the idea of talking on the phone for someone for 20 minutes when you've only intended on leaving them a quick message to say "Hi, I'm thinking about you." What if it turns into a "can you meet me for coffee?" So let it.
I no longer want to have regrets like, I wish I have written her a little note because she would have appreciated something like that. Maybe with just a heart drawn on it and slipped it in her hand while giving her a hug. I had passed her by giving her a quick smirk because I was busy, I'm not sure it was that important now. I no longer want to think too much about writing someone a text, just in case they take it the wrong way, or what if I sound too earnest or needy. What if they never respond to the love I've lavished on them? I no longer want to love with this high expectation of receiving the same kind of love back from them. The same kind of caliber, the same things I would want or like or what I consider truly loving someone. Say I love you, I think about you, believe in love, believe in God, I'm sorry, I was wrong, I miss you! Say it, don't regret it.